Negotiating Widowhood is based on ethnographic research in Manipur, a north-eastern state in India, with a grassroots organization Extra Judicial Execution Victim's Families Association (EEVFAM), who are fighting an ongoing Supreme Court case of 1528 people killed in fake encounters by paramilitary forces. The Armed Forces Special Powers Act (1958) gives unprecedented powers to the military in Manipur to search, shoot and arrest without warrant. In this paper, I unpack the everyday negotiations, desires, aspirations, dilemmas of single parents who are at the forefront of this judicial case. What does it mean to live like a widow, what are the kinds of challenges faced, and how the subjectivity of widowhood is performative, are the kind of questions I address. I use my own embodiment as an autonomous ethnographer in the region to show how everyday militarization affects the interactions and organization of grassroots collectives like EEVFAM. In the context of current Manipuri democratic aspirations, women of EEVFAM demonstrate ways in which militarization has effects well beyond the loss of life.