My lecture will provide a detailed description of my life and experience of being married to the infamous and disgraced CRNA, John Meehan AKA "Dirty John". A story featured in the LA Times hit podcast that has been downloaded more than thirty million times and is featured on TV in Bravo's eight part series of the same name. Included will be my personal experiences of discovering his addiction and criminal behaviors and the danger that posed for me after reporting it to authorities. Also included will be a summary of the actions of multiple boards of nursing , pharmacy boards, various hospital's actions and in some cases inactions, and the intervention's of multiple law enforcement agencies spanning many states and resulting in several arrests and incarcerations. It is aimed at educating CRNAs and other healthcare professionals on how a psychopath became a CRNA and lived a life of deceit and betrayal potentially harming patients until his licenses were revoked and his reign of terror that was his adult life ended in homicide.